Epiphany
My oh my….what was supposed to be a 30 day detox turned into a life changing epiphany. A small part of me almost feels bad for my haters. Why? Because despite the fact that many people marveled at the idea of me “giving up” in actuality? I was loading up. I finally found the courage to sit with myself….reflect…and most importantly heal. I understand now that no weapon formed against me or my family shall prosper and I finally understand that all the hate I received over the years was not an indication of my unworthiness; but rather the literal opposite.
In the past year I have taken time to be alone. I know women bragged about “stealing my man” and females bragged about “stealing my friends” but I just want to say thank you. I mean with the utmost sincerity…thank you. Sometimes we hold onto people who we know in our heart and soul are not meant to be in our lives out of a twisted sense of love and/or loyalty. It was unbeknownst to me, that those people were not for me. They liked the idea of me…they liked the perks that came with me… but they didn’t like me. It was through your cold and callous actions that I realized my life was better minus certain people. I can’t tell you what to believe but I can share my beliefs and my experiences. I do not believe in coincidence. So when certain people were removed from my life and all these blessings started pouring in? Opportunities began to surface and most importantly I experienced peace. True peace. Sometimes you will never understand the people around you are the source of your depleting energy until you… remove yourself. I have spent nearly the past year learning myself. Healing childhood wounds, and getting closer to God, my heavenly father whom I love so much! And in this journey I found self love, sobriety, and clarity. I am not this awful person people paint me out to be; that’s projection. In the silence I was able to draw a lot of parallels… like how girls would call me ugly and then seek to destroy every relationship. How colleagues would say I’m not “ fit” to work a position then became hateful when I got promoted …. Or like when the people who told me I’d never make it as a musician started plotting on me when I began to succeed. The biggest mistake I made was internalizing all the hatred instead of seeing it for what it truly was; jealousy.
I am beautiful. I am smart. I am creative. I am ambitious. I am a wonderful mother. I am an amazing person. I feel qualified therefore I AM.
The reason I stated earlier that I almost feel bad for my haters is because this next chapter in my life is called MY TURN. I was able to accomplish so much in the face of great odds. I was at the top of my company, dominating the music industry, and making a way for myself as a brand ambassador all while battling depression and alcoholism. So with that being said I’m sure you can imagine what I’m capable of as a healed woman.
Your lies? Your rumors? Your “sabotage”? It didn’t break me. In fact it made me exactly who I am today. For those of you unfamiliar with chemistry here’s a quick lesson: diamonds are formed under PRESSURE. I am coming back for EVERYTHING I said I’d have and then some. You want my friends? Take them. You want my man? You can have him. You want to spread lies? Go for it. You want to shame me for my past? Be my guest. Just understand that I now know exactly who I am and who I am destined to be. I also know that no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
I am truly excited to get back out in the world better, stronger, wiser, and most importantly spiritually and divinely protected and aware. May all those who played a part in my downfall bear witness to my uprising. I am Mimi Le Grand, that chick goin ham and this time? I’m here to STAY. I’d love to chat more but I have a video shoot to prepare for tomorrow night! For those of you wondering if I’ve thrown in the towel? Rest assured I never stopped making music…and I look forward to sharing it with the world. Stay tuned
